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Anchored to My Fury

### **[Ishita Sharma's Perspective]**

We were walking out of 'The Azure Room,' me still bristling about the bill, Rudra guiding me firmly with his hand on my elbow. The air was cool, and the city sounds were returning, a welcome break from the silent, expensive restaurant.

**Ishita:** **"...and you know what? That *kulfi* stall near my college? They sell better dessert for fifty rupees than what we had for four thousand! I'm telling you, I'm taking you there first."**

He was about to reply, probably with some calm, infuriatingly logical response, when chaos erupted.

Some young boys were playing a rough game of tag on the sidewalk near the entrance. Suddenly, one boy, running backwards without looking, slammed right into my side.

My momentum was thrown completely off. The thin heel of my sandal twisted painfully on the uneven pavement. I gasped, arms flailing, ready to crash hard onto the cement.

But just like the first time-at Shiv Mandir, months ago-Rudra was there.

His hand shot out, not just catching me, but pulling me flush against his hard chest. The air was knocked out of me, but I was stable, safe, anchored against his bulk.

The relief lasted a second before the real danger arrived.

Rudra went rigid. His eyes, usually deep blue, instantly turned to charcoal, dark and volcanic. The hand holding my elbow clenched, not around me, but into a fist at his side. He released me quickly and took one menacing step toward the trembling boy.

**Rudra:** (His voice was not loud, but low, vibrating with sheer, contained rage-it was terrifying.) **"Do you know what you just did? Get out of my sight. Now."**

The boy looked terrified, already stumbling backwards. Rudra looked ready to explode, his entire 6'3" frame radiating fury.

I knew that anger. That capacity for ruthlessness. I had to stop him.

I quickly stepped forward, ignoring the throbbing pain in my ankle. I reached up and placed both my hands on either side of his rigid **jaw**, forcing his angry gaze back down to mine.

**Ishita:** **"Rudra! Stop! It's okay, I'm fine. Please. He's just a child. *Aapko gussa nahi dikhana, please*."** (You mustn't show your anger, please.)

I rubbed his cheek gently with my thumb, using my soft touch to defuse the bomb.

The boy, seeing his chance, immediately blurted out a shaky apology. **Boy:** "Sorry, ma'am! I didn't see you! So sorry!"-and then ran away like his life depended on it.

Rudra didn't move. He stood, breathing heavily, his head tilted slightly under the calming pressure of my hands.

**Rudra:** (His voice was still rough, strained with frustrated anger.) **"Fine. You are not fine. Your ankle is twisted. Why are you always falling, Ishita? Why are you always in danger when I'm not looking?"**

Before I could reply, he hooked one arm beneath my knees and the other around my back. He scooped me up easily-effortlessly-into his arms, holding me against his chest as if I weighed nothing.

**Ishita:** **"Rudra! I can walk! Everyone is looking!"** I whispered desperately, tightening my hold on his neck.

**Rudra:** (Staring straight ahead towards the car, ignoring the curious glances of the valets and passersby.) **"I don't care. You are not touching the ground until we are home. If I can't protect you from a child running on the sidewalk, what kind of man am I?"**

He didn't wait for an answer, walking swiftly to the waiting black car, holding me secure and possessive against the frantic beat of his heart.

### **[Rudra Singh Rathor's Perspective

We were talking, my mind focused on her banter, her laughter-I felt a shift in the air a millisecond before the impact.

The boy hit her. And I saw the terror in her eyes as her delicate body lurched sideways, her ankle giving way.

*Again.* It was a replay of the Mandir, a sudden, blinding reminder of how fragile she was, how easily she could be hurt, and how quickly the world could snatch her from me.

I saved her, pulling her against me. But the control vanished.

**Rudra** (Inner Monologue): *That child could have broken her. He dared to touch her, hurt her, endanger her.*

I released her and stepped forward, pure, blinding, murderous rage tightening my throat.

**Rudra:** **"Do you know what you just did? Get out of my sight. Now."** My voice was deadly quiet, the kind of calm that precedes absolute destruction.

Then, her hands cupped my **jaw**. Her soft, warm skin against my furious face. The gentle, pleading touch immediately halted the explosion.

**Ishita:** **"Rudra! Stop! It's okay, I'm fine. Please. He's just a child. *Aapko gussa nahi dikhana, please*."**

I couldn't move under her hands. Her touch was the only thing capable of pulling me back from the edge. I stood there, breathing hard, feeling the anger slowly, reluctantly retreat under her soothing touch.

**Rudra:** (Straining to speak.) **"Fine. You are not fine. Your ankle is twisted. Why are you always falling, Ishita? Why are you always in danger when I'm not looking?"**

I didn't give her time to answer. I moved, scooping her up instantly, lifting her high and tight against my chest. Her weight was nothing. Her scent-my calm-was everything.

**Ishita:** **"Rudra! I can walk! Everyone is looking!"**

I didn't care about the onlookers. Let them look. Let them see who she belonged to.

**Rudra:** (I held her tighter, tucking her head under my chin.) **"I don't care. You are not touching the ground until we are home. If I can't protect you from a child running on the sidewalk, what kind of man am I?"**

I looked down at her face, which was pressed into my shirt, my eyes burning with a deep, frustrated emotion that had nothing to do with the child and everything to do with her.

**Rudra:** **"You just concentrate on staying still. And don't you dare try to pay for the doctor, either. That bill is also mine."**

### **[Ishita Sharma's Perspective]**

He placed me carefully inside the immense black car-a safe, dark space away from the public gaze. The urgency in his movements was unnerving. He didn't just put me in; he positioned me securely, almost possessively, before bending down to fasten the seatbelt across my lap.

**Ishita:** **"Rudra, seriously, *main theek hoon*."** (I'm fine.) I insisted, trying to lift my twisted ankle to prove a point. **"It just needs a little rest. See? I can move my toes."**

He ignored my voice completely. He slammed his door shut, the sound echoing the finality of his mood, and immediately turned toward me. Instead of starting the car, he leaned over the center console, pushing my leg gently but firmly toward the passenger door.

**Rudra:** (His expression was utterly deadpan, yet his eyes were blazing.) **"Silence, Ishita. Let me look."**

He carefully lifted the fabric of my trousers, examining my ankle. The skin was already swelling slightly, and there was a small, raw scratch where the heel had twisted. His large, warm fingers were surprisingly gentle as they ghosted over the injury, but the intensity in his gaze was terrifying.

**Ishita:** **"It's just a scratch, Rudra. *Ek chota sa bandage lag jayega.* That's all."** (A small bandage will be enough.)

He didn't look up. He didn't speak. He just gave me a long, cold, *dead look*-the kind that communicated, with terrifying clarity, that my opinion on my own well-being was irrelevant.

I immediately went quiet. The air in the luxury car was thick with his frustrated rage.

He picked up the first aid kit from the side pocket-a fancy, leather-bound box that probably cost more than my rent. He meticulously cleaned the small cut, his breathing audible in the silence.

**Rudra:** (He finally spoke, his voice low and dangerous as he applied an antiseptic wipe.) **"You are too careless, Ishita. Too distracted. Too busy arguing about the price of food to watch where you are walking."**

He taped a small, sterile dressing over the scratch with an agonizing focus.

**Rudra:** **"You always rush. Always trying to prove something. *But one day, your clumsiness will be fatal.* Do you understand the extent of my fury right now?"**

His words were harsh, but his hands remained gentle, almost reverent, as they finished tending to my injury.

### **[Rudra Singh Rathor's Perspective

I secured her in the seat, every movement calculated to ensure she was safe and immobile. The sight of her nearly falling, the memory of her ankle twisting-it had unlocked a primal, protective fury I rarely allowed myself to feel.

She started arguing, claiming she was fine. I didn't acknowledge the sound.

**Rudra:** **"Silence, Ishita. Let me look."**

I leaned over, pushing her leg into the light. The small, angry scratch on her fair skin was a damning evidence of my momentary failure to protect her. My hands, which were accustomed to signing billion-dollar contracts, moved with excruciating focus to examine the slight swelling.

She continued her chirping protests. **Ishita:** **"It's just a scratch, Rudra. *Ek chota sa bandage lag jayega.* That's all."**

I paused, looked up, and gave her the *look*. The one that communicated that I was the only authority in this car, in this moment, regarding her safety. Her words stopped instantly.

I pulled out the kit. As I meticulously cleaned the cut, the memory of the first time-at the Mandir-flooded my mind. Always falling. Always needing me.

**Rudra:** **"You are too careless, Ishita. Too distracted. Too busy arguing about the price of food to watch where you are walking."**

The fury was simmering beneath the surface, but it wasn't directed at her, but at the world that kept trying to hurt her.

**Rudra:** **"You always rush. Always trying to prove something. *But one day, your clumsiness will be fatal.* Do you understand the extent of my fury right now?"**

I finished bandaging her ankle, my gaze still locked on her face.

I pulled back, not to the driver's seat, but leaning close, my arm resting behind her headrest. The proximity was overwhelming, possessive.

**Rudra:** **"I want you to promise me something, Ishita."**

**Rudra:** **"From now on, you don't take a single step without holding onto my arm. I don't care if it's the sidewalk or a ballroom. *You stay physically anchored to me*. Do you understand? This is non-negotiable. Say you promise."**

### **[Ishita Sharma's Perspective]**

I stared up at him, trapped by the intensity of his ultimatum. *Stay physically anchored to him.* It was the most possessive, protective, and frankly, sinful demand I had ever heard.

**Ishita:** (My voice was barely a breath, overwhelmed by his closeness.) **"I... I promise, Rudra."**

His hand, which had been resting behind my head, moved. His large fingers came to rest gently on my **cheek**, his thumb brushing slowly, exquisitely, over my skin. The softness was a stark contrast to the danger in his eyes just moments ago.

**Rudra:** **"Good girl. Now..."** His voice softened further, turning heavy with concern. **"*Khana ache se khaya karo.* You are just 38 kg."** (Eat your food properly.)

My heart stopped. My eyes widened in shock. **Ishita:** **"What?! How do you... how do you know that?!"**

I didn't weigh myself often, but 38 kg was accurate. It was information I had never, *ever* shared with anyone. The realization that Rudra knew something so private, so intimate about my body, sent a wave of shock mixed with fear rushing through me.

He didn't answer the question directly. Instead, his gaze was dark with worry, studying my face as if looking for signs of distress.

**Rudra:** **"You're too thin, Ishita. Too delicate. You need strength, *jaan*. You can't keep falling apart like this."**

The word slipped out again. *Jaan.* It wasn't angry this time; it was soft, intimate, a breath of pure affection.

While he worried about my health, his other hand reached down and settled near my injured **ankle**. His fingers began to caress the skin surrounding the bandage, a slow, comforting, utterly sensual motion. He wasn't examining it anymore; he was soothing it.

**Ishita:** (My voice was weak, barely escaping my throat.) **"Why... why do you call me *jaan*?"**

The world seemed to hold its breath.

## **[Rudra Singh Rathor's Perspective

She promised. That soft, quiet promise was all I needed. The tension eased slightly, allowing me to finally touch her without the threat of rage.

I caressed her **cheek** softly. I knew I needed to talk about her health. The smallness of her frame, the fragility of her bones, was a constant source of anxiety.

**Rudra:** **"Good girl. Now... *Khana ache se khaya karo.* You are just 38 kg."**

I saw the shock register in her beautiful eyes. **Ishita:** **"What?! How do you... how do you know that?!"**

I wasn't going to tell her. I wasn't going to confess that I had looked at her

I do gym everyday for atleast 3 hours

So Ofcource i know about the weight

**Rudra:** (I evaded the question, focusing entirely on the concern.) **"You're too thin, Ishita. Too delicate. You need strength, *jaan*. You can't keep falling apart like this."**

I let the pet name fall naturally. It was a slip, yes, but it felt right. She was my life, my spirit, my obsession.

While I talked, my focus shifted to her injury. My hand found her **ankle**, and I began to caress the skin softly, gently circling the bandage. It was a gesture of apology for my anger, a promise of care.

**Ishita:** **"Why... why do you call me *jaan*?"**

The question hung heavy, demanding a confession I wasn't ready to give. I pulled my hand from her ankle and lifted her chin with two fingers, forcing her to look solely at me.

**Rudra:** (My gaze was intense, deep, searching her soul, but I maintained the wall of plausible deniability.) **"*Kyunki tum meri zimmedari ho, Ishita.*"** (Because you are my responsibility.)

**Rudra:** **"You are my responsibility, my most precious thing. And when something is that vital, that close to one's heart... what else do you call it? *Bolo?*"** (Tell me?)

I ran my thumb along her lower lip, my gaze dropping to her mouth before snapping back to her eyes.

**Rudra:** **"It's not a lover's term, *jaan*. It's a statement of ownership. You are my life, and I am the only one who gets to protect it. Now, *chalo*. Let's get you home before I decide you need full-time surveillance."**

The air in the car was thick with unspoken truths after her question. I had deflected it, claiming *jaan* was a term of ownership and responsibility-which it was, but not the whole truth. She accepted the answer, though her eyes held a lingering suspicion that thrilled me.

I started the car, the powerful engine a low rumble beneath us. My priority now was getting her to safety.

The drive was quiet, punctuated only by the occasional road noise. I glanced at her often; she was still tense, but the soft lighting of the city reflected in her beautiful brown eyes.

I pulled up right to the curb outside her modest apartment building.

**Rudra:** (My voice was firm.) **"Stay still."**

I quickly got out, walked to her side, and opened the door. I bent down, ignoring the rough ground, and gently removed the sandal from her uninjured foot, then carefully eased the heel off her bandaged ankle.

**Rudra:** **"Lean on me."**

She slipped her arms around my neck immediately, a natural, trusting gesture that melted the ice around my core. I lifted her effortlessly, holding her close to my chest, and navigated the few steps to her front door.

I set her down gently, steadying her bare feet on the cool threshold. We stood there for a moment, the distance between us minimal, the possessive heat of my hands still lingering on her waist.

Then, she leaned in, resting her cheek against my chest, her arms wrapping around me in a familiar, comforting hug. I reciprocated instantly, pulling her tight, inhaling the scent of candy and evening air that clung to her. This small, ritualistic goodbye was my favorite part of the day.

But tonight, she changed the script.

She pulled back just enough to reach me, stood on her tip-toes, and pressed a soft, warm **kiss** right onto my cheek-right over the spot I had only moments ago caressed.

**Ishita:** (Whispering the words, her breath warm against my ear.) **"Thank you."**

The simple gesture was like a lightning strike. My mind went blank. I stood there, utterly stunned, feeling the phantom pressure of her lips as she immediately pulled away and bolted toward her door.

I watched, frozen, as she fumbled for her keys. Then, right before disappearing inside, she glanced over her shoulder, her face radiating pure, chaotic light. She pressed her fingers to her lips and blew me a quick, mischievous **kiss**-a final, brazen challenge-and then vanished.

I stood there for a long moment, the quiet street lights illuminating my face. My hand slowly rose to touch the spot she had kissed. A slow, uncontrollable **bright smile** stretched across my lips, erasing the CEO mask completely.

*Jaan.* She was absolutely my life.

### **[Ishita Sharma's Perspective]**

Rudra parked the car, and the controlled fury in his eyes was replaced by gentle concern. He wouldn't let me touch the ground.

He helped me out, removing my heels with agonizing care. **Rudra:** **"Lean on me."**

I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck, letting him lift me. It was ridiculous, but the security of his arms was intoxicating. When he set me down at my door, I felt an overpowering rush of affection and gratitude. He had spent the entire evening treating me like a priceless artifact, arguing over my worth, cleaning my silly scratch, and sleeping on the floor for me.

I hugged him tight, burying my face in the crisp fabric of his shirt, inhaling the expensive, soothing scent of him.

Then, I did something completely reckless.

I pulled back, stood on my toes, and pressed a quick, feather-light **kiss** on his cheek.

**Ishita:** (Whispering the words, full of meaning.) **"Thank you."**

I didn't wait for his reaction. I knew what it would do. I yanked the door open and sprinted inside, the image of his stunned face burned into my mind.

As I closed the door, I couldn't resist. I looked back through the slightly ajar door, finding his gaze immediately. He looked frozen, his massive body completely still, his eyes wide.

I grinned-a wild, triumphant grin. I raised my hand to my lips and blew him one last, playful **kiss**.

His reaction was immediate and devastating: the cold, stone mask shattered, replaced by an expression of pure, unadulterated joy. **His smile was bright, blinding, and completely for me.**

I slammed the door shut, leaning my back against it, my heart hammering against my ribs.

*He's in love with me.* And now, he knew I knew.

I lay sprawled on my bed, the silver *kada* still resting in its velvet box on my nightstand, the bandage on my ankle a constant, dull reminder of the evening's drama. But it wasn't the pain or the price tag that kept me awake.

It was **him**.

The image of Rudra Singh Rathor, the ruthless prince of industry, standing frozen on the sidewalk, his jaw slack, his ocean-blue eyes wide in stunned disbelief. And then, that **smile**. That blinding, unmasked, pure smile that reached his eyes and made his entire face glow.

*He was thrilled.*

I pressed my fingers to my own lips, remembering the brief, soft pressure on his cheek. I had broken the rule. I had crossed the invisible line he'd been guarding so fiercely.

*Why did I do it?*

Because of the song? Because he slept on the floor? Because he fed me carrots like I was a sick kitten? No. It was because when I saw the sheer, raw *fury* in his eyes when the boy bumped into me, I realized the depth of his protective instinct. He wasn't just attracted; he was **obsessed**. And that kiss was a thank you, an acknowledgment, a playful challenge saying, *"I see you, Rudra, and I dare you to stop me."*

I knew what that kiss meant to him. It wasn't just lip gloss on his skin. It was permission. It was a sliver of hope.

I rolled onto my side, clutching my pillow. He had called me his **'jaan'** (life/beloved), claimed me as his **'zimmedari'** (responsibility), bought me jewelry, and sang a love song about me to a dark camera. And tonight, he slept on the cold floor and carried me in his arms like I was the most fragile thing in the world.

*He loves me.*

The fact that he knew my exact weight, my *38 kg*, was still the most unnerving piece of the puzzle. It showed a level of surveillance that bordered on the terrifying, yet felt deeply cared for.

I felt a giddy, reckless excitement mixed with apprehension. The chase was over. The cards were on the table. He just didn't know *I* knew what his hand held.

*What would he do tomorrow? Would he call? Would he pretend nothing happened?* I fell asleep eventually, the image of his brilliant, stunned smile the last thing in my mind.

### **[Rudra Singh Rathor's Perspective

The drive home was conducted in a state of suspended animation. My jaw was tight, but not with anger-with the sheer, overwhelming, unexpected joy. My fingers were tingling where she had kissed my cheek, and where I had held her body tight against mine.

I hadn't just been kissed; I had been **acknowledged**. I had been chosen.

I reached the Rathor Mansion, the imposing structure seeming colder and less relevant than ever before. I parked the car, walked swiftly through the silent, massive halls, ignoring the night guards.

I walked straight to my private, hidden room, my hand instinctively going to my cheek. My fingertips brushed against a subtle, faint smear of pink-her **lipstick stain**.

I walked directly to the mirror. The stain was barely visible, a ghost of her presence, but it was there. And I couldn't bring myself to wash it off.

I took out my phone, went to the camera, and angled the light carefully. I took several high-resolution photos of my own face-specifically documenting the small, faint, sacred pink mark on my cheek. *Proof.* Proof that this moment, this breakthrough, was real.

**Rudra** (Inner Monologue): *This is the most important evidence I've ever collected. More valuable than any contract, any stock portfolio.*

I changed out of my expensive clothes, tossing them onto the floor-a rare sight for the meticulous prince. I lay down on the cold silk sheets, the scent of her still faint on my shirt.

I stared at the ceiling, my mind a storm of triumphant chaos. That small kiss was her responding to the *jaan*, to the floor sleeping, to the song she wasn't supposed to hear. She was telling me, **"I see your true self, and I accept it."**

I slept for only three hours, but it was the most peaceful rest I'd had in months.

The next morning, I was downstairs by 7:00 AM, dressed in a sharp, intimidating three-piece suit. My mother was waiting in the dining room.

**siya maa:** **"Rudra! You look absolutely exhausted! Are you sleeping at all? Your eyes are dark. Don't tell me that European deal is still keeping you up."**

I picked up my untouched orange juice. **Rudra:** (My voice was calm, serious, and perfectly modulated-the cold businessman.) **"The European deal is secure, Maa. I am focused on maximizing our Q3 growth. Some days simply require more attention."**

I acted serious, I acted cold, and I maintained my stoic silence throughout the breakfast, meticulously cutting my fruit. But inside, I was dancing like a man who had just won the lottery and found salvation simultaneously.

*She kissed me.*

Every mundane task-signing documents, listening to market analysis, even enduring my mother's dramatic concern-was overlaid with the blinding joy of that simple kiss. The world was still the same, but I was fundamentally, irrevocably changed.

The only thing I didn't do? Wash my face. Not until I was safely alone in my cabin later that afternoon. The stain had faded, but the triumph remained.

I managed to endure the entire breakfast charade, fielding my mother's queries about stress and the stock market with my usual robotic precision. Inside, however, I felt like I was humming. The ghost of Ishita's lips on my cheek was a potent, dangerous energy.

Just as I was about to escape to my office for the day, the soft, firm voice of my *Bebe* (paternal grandmother) stopped me.

**Bebe:** **"Rudra. *Idhar aa.* Come to my room before you bury yourself in those files."** (Come here.)

Bebe-the only person in the family who genuinely saw past the suit and the billions. I immediately obeyed, walking into her sunlit, traditionally decorated room.

She sat on her favorite armchair, knitting, watching me with shrewd, knowing eyes.

**Bebe:** **"Sit. You are bouncing off the walls. I see a new kind of madness in your eyes today, *puttar*."** (Son.)

I sat, leaning forward, unable to completely disguise the manic energy she had immediately detected.

**Rudra:** **"Bebe, I am fine. Just exceptionally focused on the Singapore logistics."**

She put her knitting needles down with a sharp *clack*.

**Bebe:** **"Nonsense. Your logistics look like a lovesick teenager's diary today. You haven't shouted once, you haven't dismissed anyone, and you've eaten your *paratha* without complaint. *Kya baat hai? Aaj toh suraj doosri disha se nikla hai.*"** (What's the matter? The sun has risen from a different direction today.)

She reached out and patted my hand, her gentle pressure melting my reserve.

**Bebe:** **"Tell Bebe. Why are you so happy, *beta*? It's not business, I know. It's the girl, isn't it? Ishita."**

I took a deep breath, knowing there was no point in lying to her. She already knew the truth about the secret wall, the endless calls, and my softening heart.

**Rudra:** **"She... she kissed me, Bebe."** The words came out low, quiet, and completely honest, a confession I couldn't make to anyone else.

**Bebe:** (Her face instantly broke into a wide, joyous smile. She clapped her hands together softly.) **"*Wah! Sacchi?!* And what did you do, you big fool? Did you freeze?"** (Really?!)

**Rudra:** **"I froze. She ran inside, then she blew another kiss from the door and ran away. *I couldn't move.*"** I admitted, the smile from the previous night finally breaking through my façade.

**Rudra:** **"She's so small, Bebe. And she has so much courage. She knows I'm difficult, she sees my anger, and she still chose to... to acknowledge me."**

Bebe reached out, cupping my cheek-the one Ishita had kissed-her eyes shining with happiness.

**Bebe:** **"She didn't just acknowledge you, Rudra. She acknowledged the man beneath the cold. *Woh tumhari jaan hai, beta.* She is your life, your light. I told you this the first time you couldn't stop talking about her makeup kit."**

**Bebe:** **"This is good. This is *very* good. Now, you don't let her go. Go and get this light, Rudra. She doesn't need your money; she needs your honesty. Now go. And send flowers to her office. *Lekin pehle office ke security check kar lena, kahin koi aur usko dekh na le.*"** (But first, check the office security, lest someone else looks at her.)

I rose, feeling lighter than air, the weight of the kiss validated by the one person who mattered.

**Rudra:** **"Yes, Bebe. I will. Thank you."**

I left her room, no longer the cold CEO, but a man armed with purpose and the memory of a kiss, ready to conquer the world-but only for *her*.

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